love me or love things??..why what and how come??..

relationship require both party..
so at our age,we're are often so naive ,so immature, so eager to know more bout love..
or mayb even throwing the dice and betting our luck to see what its like to be in a relationship with someone..
nowadays u cant put a relationship tht it requires a male and female..
its absurd tht even same sexes can be in a relastionship..
no offence but this has been once a very uncomfortable issue for me..
so ive basically manage to be in a relationship twice and for me,its complicated.,
i ermm..couldnt say there wasnt any happy memories or sad memories because there is..
actually after in a relationship i starting back as a single,i tend to think more before going the flow or ride again..
i tend to think its the looks,body or labels,things,possesion or money or attitude tht matters to a person who wants to be in a relationship..
and some say without money u cant have happiness coze the world is about money..
cars,clothes,shoes,acceseries,even the cinema tickets and food are all about money..
however i mean u can still live without those and come to the point of looks body and attitude..
does the looks of one is important to another person or the figure of the body matters??..
what kind of attitude would be appropriate in a relationship..
so many questions without answer..
so i start to find them starting by asking myself..
i care bout looks..
i care bout body..
i mind about attitude..
i also love to have money..
but am i looking for the same person who have the same desire as i am??.
or am i to find someone who is contra against my thoughts..
based on my knowledge,sometiems finding someone tht doesnt seems to suit u,suits u!..
i mean there is the joy of ermm..playing and disagrement and u know the ups and down..
so love me or love things??.
if love me,why??..
love things,what??..
and how come im afraid to be in a relationship..
i become less social.
tend to be more self reliant..
and even sometimes i feel kinda alone is better..
so needless i am confessing tht my preious relationship has broken my confident to start a new one..
but i all im good at failing relastionships makes even tend to more careful to move on..
so why what and how come in order to start a realstionship??..