disappointed..

today went out with a girl to watch the movie night at the museum 2..
the show was hilarious and nice,overall its was worth watching..

so i went to lm at like 11.30..
went to a n w for breakfast then head off to popular to read my favorite magazine..
the men's magazine..
so written in there were basically men's stuff..
and there this section called the sex bulletin if i was not mistaken,wrote there bout girls commenting how to be called a sexy guy..
so there written bout guy's blog shouldn't be bout the depressive stuff instead should be something a guy's desire....

so i apparently disagree..
though i do wanna thought as a sexy man..
but i find the comfort to write bout my depressive stuff in here..

i seriously don't understand her..
does she have feelings or does she not??.
she spends time with me but she keeps her distance..
she gives me a feeling that i wan u but i dowan u..

seriously i do not know what is my next move towards her..
though sometimes i feel like msging her or even calling her out..
but she seems all busy..
she makes it sound all nice to call me out for lunch or to spend time with her but in the end she keeps her distance..

i dont know how long can i survive in this situation..
to be frank,my feelings for her had not fade..
it was always there but i kept it within me cause back then she had another man's heart..
but now she is single..
she cheers for single but is that what she wants??..
or am i just giving myself too much hope??.
mom is always nagging bout me thinking too much when things are made easy..

so i wanted to ask her does she still likes me??..
though i admitted that im not convince to be in a relationship now but i do want a woman to change my thought of so..
i don't want to be a wanderer,always finding and not having someone to lay back on..

i always envy the moments where the guys get to lay back and have some alone time with the one they love..
well,i admit i think too much..
but just to be clear,i do still like her and the feelings aint something that is fading soon..
i guess its here to stay..

so another disappointing thing would be my performance for the basketball training..
i do not know why i had tremendously retard of my stamina..
mayb i cant focus on the game..
i dont know..
something is bothering me..
and thanks to all that wished me on my bday..
i do appreciate it a lot..

happy bday.....

its 12.32 in the middle of the night and its my bday...
im waiting for her msg just to wish me..

its nothing much and its doesn't mean anything much but right for the moment i yearn for it..
every minute i see it pass...
every msg i tend to be wondering who is it..
well its okay.........its not the first year...

im 18...lol..
legally 18....
and regarding bout the request of having a comment box or chat box...
i dont know how to include into my blog....
so find someone to teach me??..

im so beautiful,so damn beautiful

so basically ive fallen for the beautiful by akon..
ive been setting it as my ringtone,singing it day and night..
well its truely one awesome song...

so damn beautiful...

ok..so here i am,publishing a new post since the last 2 day i was too tired to post any..
life's been great!!!!..
i cannot believe two great things happen on me just between 2 days..

ok...so here's the first thing..it was 2 days ago that i stayed back in college just to slack and chat with my weird fren,sin yee..
it was 5 we started chatting..
then around 6 plus,a couple of seniors,a girl and a boy, came to us and ask me if i would like to compete for prom king..
EYE OPEN,ROUNDS AS A COIN,SURPRISED,SPEECHLESS was my reaction to their question..
i was shy OF COURSE..so i giggle(like a man)..i was like hooooly shit..me??..prom king??..unimaginable..definitely not me...
then my fren sin yee..convince me to join and said it would be fun..
and the seniors were like u met with our criteria..
and i was quite happy when they say so..
means im not that bad after all..
since then i loved facing myself in the mirror..vain right??!!..i agree...though i have these two pimples on the bottom of my jaw both side to side..
yeah...life's good..
so vote for me if i passed my audition......
im so beautiful!!!..so damn beautiful..

haha...then it was just yesterday that i had a friendly match with a us team..
boy they were good..
they had this player who was a nba draft player..i guess it should be put in this way..
he was like dwayne wade...he scored 10 points in 30 seconds!!!!!..
and coach put me on the game to mark him..
what a joy to mark him though i couldnt do it..






















im recognise by my blue nike shoe..i loved this picture so much..like i was a nba player..
beautiful and remarkable skills by wilson the photographer~!!!!!...
i love it...muah!!!!!see how tall that white guy is??..at least a head or more..

i only had 1 assist but no points score for 4minutes in the game..its an achievement cause im the 1st rookie coach put in the main team..im proud..but i will work harder..
i love it i love it i love it..hey,told u 30 minutes of gay time...

ok...the next thing would be in my post would be the mini i phone that i would be selling..




it would be the size of ur palm..suitable for girls...for guys it would be slim and nice to hold




















its still wrap and new...


















sry,the headset is mine...this is just to show how it looks like..














it could support up to 16gb not 8gb...

















iPHONE...













please tell me if u are interested...
ispring_143@hotmail.com is my msn address....
add it,tell me ur name,ur price,...

well..i did fulfill my frens request..update my blog,put some pictures in it..
so what else do u all dearful friends would like me to do in my blog??..

failed my driving test..lol..

so today i went for my driving car test..
woke up at 7..
reached there at 9..
waited till 10 just to fail my slope..
and then waited till 2 just to pass my on the road..
so basically i was quite happy..

and i did notice one thing that when people are getting nervous,its always easier to get to know them at that particular moment.
mayb they needed someone to chat with..
or they were just shaking and needed some comfort..

so i got to know a few people there..
a girl who her name was cheryl..
well..she is a chinese..
talkative..
and she likes to describe me looking alike as her fren..
by that she meant my expressions and my eyes..
so in conclusion she is friendly..

then what a joy..
i met the plum plum chicken wing flabby arms janice lee ci en and fierce and all nice subashini along my day at the driving test..
and when i failed my slope..
they joined me!!..
good frens..
hard to find..
appreciate what u girls did for me!!..
and when uncle droves us back in his kancil..
his air cond broke down AGAIN??..
so i stood my head out of the scrolled down window and now i understand why dogs love doing that..super relaxing...and uncle was going only at 60km per hour..
i will remember to adapt myself to the car nxt time..
i will not fail again..
oh well..

so nowadays if i had the time i would do some 30 minutes gay time aka blogging..
well my fren were asking me update it so i was like,yeah y not??..
although i dont think she will read..
but oh well,friends request,y reject??..

then i was thinking bout finding a gf today..
i was thinking hey,i think im financially good and my lifestyle is quite stable so maybe i should find one now??..
but then i came to think back bout these few days im pretty hot tempered and ive been in quite a mood swing..so better not..
wouldnt wan my soon to find and be 4th gf running away crying in ters due to my mood swings..

so basically no..
no to relationships..
but yes to more friendships..
i think im chatting more these few days.,
though time goes slowly for me but im enjoying it..'
sometimes im facing some challenges and sometimes im just plain ordinary happy me..
so college life did cheer me up..
compare to sticking myself out for my 'brothers' and college life??.
COLLEGE LIFE..
happier merrier and i think i will start cam whoring...seems fun..

failed my driving test..lol..

frens dont last cause they aint true??..

pffff!!...screw the word fren..
im so angry over a minor thing which i should had been over it.....
i should be spending my time doing my assignment instead of blogging over such minor things..
but it keeps bothering me..

so its just a simple friend and friend argument..

i dunno whether i did mention in my other post bout him??..
well he is an awfully rude person..
i cant understand why i even became close with this kind of friend..

he is like a flirty jerk,as long as that girl is pretty he wants to know..
its okay,cause if u don't find then u won't find em..
BUT..he doesn't dare to make a move on to get the know the girl..
and then he would force his friends to 'HELP' him..
eventually his friend,apparently would be me at most times=.=...
will let him get his softer side and eventually i will 'HELP' him..

to think back,i was very very dumb...
he was only taking advantage of my soft side..
to him,my actions and move is kiddy or they would use they word IMMATURE..

so just to let u all know if u think that i am immature that u can take advantage of my softer side,u can go fuck yourself and bang ur dear freaking balloony head on the wall..
i learned and won't let it happen again..

okay..the next issue would be his way of answering people..
visualize this,that u with the intention of sending a simple message just to ask if he wanted to play basketball and his reply is fuck u..
just two words,fuck u..
how unbearable rudeness of him..
u could say that this is minor cause foul words are common among our gangs..
BUT not to me..
in our gang we are all assholes when it comes to calling people or msging to come play for basketball..
we rather not call or msg..
so I'm doing the job that nobody wants to do..
I'm doing with no hope of u paying me back my phone bill..
and just he replies fuck u..
AND NO MATTER WHAT FUCKING EXCUSES U MAKE TO ME,I AM IGNORANT..

such low standards...
such a gap difference between our educational level to our morality level(dunno how to express in words)..

YES..I AGREE ITS KINDA IMMATURE OF ME TO BE MAD OVER SUCH SMALL AND MINOR SHIT CRAP LOAD OF BULLSHIT THINGS BUT..
i am very disappointed of why i helped in the first place..
i didn't wan to listen to what others said bout him..
i was ignorant cause i thought as long as i am a true friend to him so he will as well..

but all that sincerity just to recognize myself as a doll and toy for him to walk all over..
all the while i was treating him with respect and loyalty as a friend..
but he was just taking advantage of me..
i fucking hate these kind of people..
they ain't sincere..
so this is what u get of being nice and sincere to someone??..
so i practically can say THIS IS WHY I AM SO ANTI SOCIAL WITH GUYS..
i am a guy and i understand what we are going true..
but why am i the one always being the fool..
i could understand if the girls treat me this way because its the difference of our sex..
but guys..same species...
i was kinda happy so far..
very satisfying with my life so far till this incident..
again repeating history itself...

u must be crazy my friend..

tired tired tired...
this word has been repeating itself in my head and it has kept rewinding..
and everytime i i think of this word i fell asleep..

and this is how i miss my g.chem class today!!!..
ta de mother(ur mother)..i was awake at 4.30 but i was hit back asleep with a headache just when i wake up..
so basically im lazy...

i did stop a while for b logging..
because i felt like blogging is such a gay move by a guy..
its like u read a blog that writes "hey,im soooooo happy today that i bought a new jeans,etc"...just to know what it was written by a guy..
i mean yeah it is expression but i felt it was a bit gay..
but hey,gay is like common among ppl??.
so whats wrong bout me being a gay for what?..30 minutes of my day

actually i wanna admit something that i am comp dumb and blog dumb..
as u can see that my blog is dull..
boring,full with words??..
it is not because i dowan to learn how to improve my blog, its just that i dont know where the heck to fancified my blog..

i too wanted ppl to look at my blog and say wow,colourful!!..
retard me..

2nd thing i wanna admit is that after so many years i came to know that im a shy guy..
haha..
i turn my back when some girl that i dont know talked to me..
haha..
even a she has the guts to approach me but the one with the balls turns away...
lah..regret man i tell u..
dont do that for u guys out there..
im so anti social and i dont know why..
i try to friendly but i guess i wasnt trying hard enough...

but all i do know is that i irritate people easily..
so let me know if i irritated u..
i guess i will try to stop being so irritative??..

i guess im kinda still influence by people around me who hates me..
so i guess i should say fuck off??...
i mean in the ass i should care bout them..
yes ive been telling myself this but still so i couldnt ignore them..
i must try hard..
i must be confident that i could one day laugh at those who look down on me..

ok..enough bout me..
i think i did get to know a new friend..
she is 20..
ermm..not slim...friendly..
willingly to learn..
study type..
laughs at my cold jokes..
right..
the best of all is that she dont mind mixing around a kid like me..
see.........im friendly..
oh yeah nowadays i enjoy self praising..
ok..enough bout me..
thn she is like practically the same class in all classes as i am..
well as long she is neutral thn im fine..

ehhhhh...im selling a iphone mini..
i try to upload some pictures into the blog later whn i get my hands on it..
its iphone but mini type..
its a china phone and LEGAL AND WONT EXPLODE...
gee cant understand ppl..china phone will explode!!!the the how can china reach the population of 1 billion eh??..
there wont be peace at china lah..so many explosions happen...
if so thn 1 million ppl is also an unreacheable dream lah..
funny ppl..
lol..

well..i guess im tired AGAIN!!...