i dont and wan to fall for you again..

ever loved someone whom u rejected??..
ever felt desperate for u to talk to her?..
its like a torment just to talk her...u want to talk to her but u dowan too..
u wan to hold back ur feelings..
u know it aint right for u to like her again but yet u wan it...
u yearn for her to care for u but u show nothing,no expression when does care for u..
u hope for a chance to be with her again for u left tht choice due to ur foolishness and selfishness...
u wan to have the distance but u dowan to be too far away..
ur stuck here thinking whether is it u she wants to talk or it is just all in ur mind..
u pick up ur phone and all u ever wanna text is her...

for why in the hell u know ur not gonna be worthy for her and for all that uve done u hope for another chance??..
u tried so hard to pull out of liking her but just her appearance for tht very 5 seconds and all effort to put the distance is thrown away??washed up??..
u know ur all out of love..
u only wan someone to love u but why her??..
y??..
all is happening again..like a spoilt tape that keeps rewinding and rewinding..
u wanna stop the tape..but for somehow tht very spot that keeps rewinding make u happy.
though ive found someone new that i thought i would like but it seems its all a lie..
u wanna stop everything inculding conversation with everyone else just so u could focus on her..
its dumb and yet u know it..
nothing bout what u do for her is gonna make her to give u another chance..
she probably just laugh at it thinking that ure just a mere boy doing unnecessary things...
to her ur nothing..
but to u,she's like a poison..
every step u take make u deeper and the pain gets more real....
i dont but i wan to fall for u again..