another year has passed so quickly..

wow...in a blink of an eye im back to the day where everything meets the wrong turn..
the day ive started making a decision where i regreted for a series of time..

though time clicks and past,the solitary moments ,the worse and the very intense moments of life has just pass in a blink of an eye..

one year back,i was still wondering what will this year be??..
one year from back then ,im wondering what could ive done better last year for this year..

funny though,how life parts at every turn..
in just a year u change to learn more and spread out like a drop of an ink into a glass full of milk..
suddenly another year will pass and soon u will find tht people change so much..
some maybe good some maybe bad..
however u may find urself still stuck being the same old u..
wondering and ponder if u ever did change from this very point..

i dont know bout others,but i always look back onto myself and ask if ive grown from yesterday and the day before..
am i a better person or am still a bewilderment child trying to figure out who am i..
though i do not know the answer but i tend to give out an effort to try to stay in line..

i believe tht as long as u dont give up being the good guy,u will bloom eventually into a normal person..
i believe tht holding on to ur belief is what most important to be a better person..
so,mayb this year my moto will be 'nvr be tired being the good guy'...
i hope i can live up my moto..
i will work hard to live up to tht..
so may every obstacle i face,i face with bravery and patiently..
for every fall,i shall pick myself up and look up again..
for every success,mayb i not be cocky and to be more mature...

i feel guilty

today was the day 1 and the last day of my first job..
this morning at 7.00 i woke up to get ready for my job..
iron my clothes ,took a bath,wax my hair tidily..
headed off to kl to had breakfast with my parents..
this tht thn tht this..
thn reach MEGAN AVENUE.
went up to the office with my dad..
talk to the in-charge person there...
and there i met christina..

at 1st i thought she was a rather quite person..
nth much to talk about and rather the cool type person..

later she prepared some notes for me..
taught a lot of stuff bout retail sales..
she wasnt really someone who could crack a joke out suddenly..
she was rather trying to maintain cool..

so after she brief me on the retail sales thingy,she asked me to go for my lunch and bloody,my lunch itself cost me rm12..
sheesh..city life..
thn after lunch i went back up to the office to wait for her to bring me to sg wang,my work place..
and then,........while waiting for her,i was reading my notes and not long after tht i went twinkle twinkle little star..
i slept for like half an hour and god knows who heard my snoring..
i was tired!!..
damn it..

so after tht she drove me off to pavilion,the 2nd branch shop..
not bad u know for a small shop in pavilion but such an outstanding decoration..
i went there like twice and i still felt like 'hey,this is comfortable..'
so she introduce to my sheila a staff there..
thn she ask a bit bla and bla thn she drove me to sg wang..

now,one thing bout her is tht her driving skills are excellent..
she did turnings my mum nvr can attempt..
though i nearly pee in my pants but somehow it makes her look cool..
right..

thn at sg wang she brought to the work place..
i quickly adapt myself to the enviroment as the staff there were very friendly..
i felt close there..
i learn to memorize the items there..
i learn to key in the money..
how to do this and tht..
so basically i learn a lot during the 1st day..

thn...i went to take a monorail to my mum's office..
on my way home thn i decided to refuse to work due to personal reasons..
so,i really owe a big thanks to christina...
i really appreaciate what she's done for me..
and a big sry for dissapointing u...
but i hope someday i will get to used what u had taught me..