live up to it...

sometimes i know the road down is so hard and difficult..
its narrow, bending and never goes easy...

i do get lost sometimes, afraid, shiver , tremble, and fall...
but what i do know is that, everytime im down ,hurt and fallen..
someone will come and help me...pick me up..
look out for me..
while some don't...

for those who've been there for me are truely my friends and i understand how much u guys and girls care for me..
appreciate it..
but for those who didn't bother to help me..
i still treat u as who u are..
a friend..
i know that it aint easy being a friend and choosing ur friend i important..
and i also know that it is impossible for people to accept every little person in their life..

the truth is that everyone is scared that what they do will inflict pain to other people...
but to me it is that if u don't try thn u wont succeed.....
for everything ur afraid and u try, u gain a success and courage for although just a inch of improvement..
fo this is what i believe and will live up to it..

A thousand words may not hurt as much as a single word

U can win but u cant win all...
Ive always thought that i am familiarize with this term..
To be frank,now all that is kept playing in my head was just a verse,no...a word that made me felt sad..
See,having a full intention to play basketball so i headed out and drove there to college..
Put on my shoe,warm up and i am ready to go..
Not showing any expression just being myself as i just wanted to enjoy myself playing basketball..
I did not play well and not play my best at all as i am still not adapted to their gameplay..

I truely admit myself that i do not adapt quickly to things..
i'm rather slow..
So i lost the game a few times..
Couldnt say who to blame as we played as a team..
As just to be happy i play basketball..was that so much to ask for to be happy??..

So we did lost one game where this nigerian was a bit self centered and did not want to pass the ball..
So i voice out for myself to hear just to get rid of the frustration...
Then this guy ask me whom was i referring to?..
And he add that he thinks that the Nigerian was better than i am..

the way his tone was define something very different..
it wasnt just his thought by that word BETTER...
i know it is foolish to be sad or depress over such trivial things..
but from his tone and word he makes me feel that i think that i can win all in the court...

the fact is that i dislike that people who don't me addresses me something whom im not...
but the fact is still that i can't change or make people think the way i want them to be..

im stuck in a world that shall i insist on ignoring bout people's comment bout me as it isnt true or am to listen and adapt for better??..
neither way makes it hard as the road ahead is blurry and full of unexpected pop ups...
but for now a thousand words may not hurt as much as a single word...

weird...

i cant seem to stop and wonder if posting picture in ur blog makes ur blog looks more interesting..
well...i dont take pictures that often as no one really wants to take picture with me..
i nvr stay quiet and still ,so no wonder and uploading pictures of myself and looking back at my own blog looks lame..

some guy wrote to another person saying this 'i thing u can do that'..
lmao!!...
well,i ain't such a position to be laughing at people but i can barely resist it..
i mean think and thing sounds alike but WAY different meaning..
if u aint sure,go check a dictionary...

well,haha...
ok...over with it..
so whats nxt??..ermm...
new songs are out...but apparently i haven't got the time to track them down and right now i am unable to watch my favorite tv programme HOUSE...
sis and bro are watching and i miss the opening...
so i guess my bedtime for today is 2...

and wow..lakes won today in the final..
proud proud..
there was this part where the emcee said that kobe didnt wanted an ice pack cause he wanted to feel the pain..
lol..sometimes i wonder what other man thinks..pain = inspiration for win..
and basically todays game was a blast..
dwight howard was silent by gasol throughout the game and odom was just astonishing..
kobe as usual,the best there is..and fisher made a great contribution to the team..
and as a result..2009 nba champions...
yeah..lakers rocks...

i want a girl to be my side but is it a pretty one or the one i love

ive always wonder if i want a girl that is pretty or the girl that i love..
ive had friends who told me that choose the one u love instead of the pretty ones..
i know that but can i do that??.

i know it might sound wrong but its true bout me..
who doesnt get distracted by pretty things???
apparently everyone does..
should be the one that fascinates my eyes or the one that adores my heart??..
if she is someone i can't stand seeing how am i to love her??..
but if she is someone that everyone loves seeing how secure is her love for me??..

u are planning to spend time with the person u wanna be with..
but which should be the right one??
the one that wears a dress to a beach or the one who wears jeans to a prom night??..
the one who looks pretty but dumb or the one who looks dumb but clever??..
but with all these to request,do people have the same request as i do??..

confusing..people say slowly find and u dont know who u might end up with..
im afraid that i will nvr find that very person and by so im taking all chances..
but am i doing right??..
if not taking all chances then wait for someone??
its not easy waiting for an answer which keeps u awake at night,wondering and mesmerizing..
hmm...
amazed as i read through my own blog...
its all bout words and its all bout question with no answer..
ask me if i am yearning for a girl...
noooooo....
ask me if i am wanting to be alone for this while...
nooooo.....

even myself do not know myself..
i want to love but not to love??..
hate my mum when she is right..
she says that i think too much...
well,guess somehow she knows that best things in life comes free..
my mum always ask me to have fun...
yet i find no joy nowadays that life seems a bit dull already..
im beginning to stress out on my studies..
yet i do find the time to listen to songs like mario u should let me love u pr mayb hinder without u....

best things in life come free..

disappointed..

today went out with a girl to watch the movie night at the museum 2..
the show was hilarious and nice,overall its was worth watching..

so i went to lm at like 11.30..
went to a n w for breakfast then head off to popular to read my favorite magazine..
the men's magazine..
so written in there were basically men's stuff..
and there this section called the sex bulletin if i was not mistaken,wrote there bout girls commenting how to be called a sexy guy..
so there written bout guy's blog shouldn't be bout the depressive stuff instead should be something a guy's desire....

so i apparently disagree..
though i do wanna thought as a sexy man..
but i find the comfort to write bout my depressive stuff in here..

i seriously don't understand her..
does she have feelings or does she not??.
she spends time with me but she keeps her distance..
she gives me a feeling that i wan u but i dowan u..

seriously i do not know what is my next move towards her..
though sometimes i feel like msging her or even calling her out..
but she seems all busy..
she makes it sound all nice to call me out for lunch or to spend time with her but in the end she keeps her distance..

i dont know how long can i survive in this situation..
to be frank,my feelings for her had not fade..
it was always there but i kept it within me cause back then she had another man's heart..
but now she is single..
she cheers for single but is that what she wants??..
or am i just giving myself too much hope??.
mom is always nagging bout me thinking too much when things are made easy..

so i wanted to ask her does she still likes me??..
though i admitted that im not convince to be in a relationship now but i do want a woman to change my thought of so..
i don't want to be a wanderer,always finding and not having someone to lay back on..

i always envy the moments where the guys get to lay back and have some alone time with the one they love..
well,i admit i think too much..
but just to be clear,i do still like her and the feelings aint something that is fading soon..
i guess its here to stay..

so another disappointing thing would be my performance for the basketball training..
i do not know why i had tremendously retard of my stamina..
mayb i cant focus on the game..
i dont know..
something is bothering me..
and thanks to all that wished me on my bday..
i do appreciate it a lot..

happy bday.....

its 12.32 in the middle of the night and its my bday...
im waiting for her msg just to wish me..

its nothing much and its doesn't mean anything much but right for the moment i yearn for it..
every minute i see it pass...
every msg i tend to be wondering who is it..
well its okay.........its not the first year...

im 18...lol..
legally 18....
and regarding bout the request of having a comment box or chat box...
i dont know how to include into my blog....
so find someone to teach me??..