tequila night..

so today is just not the ordinary Sunday...
see today dad brought us to sky bar..
and i had what I've always wish for,TEQUILA..
haha..
i know i sound like an alcoholic but hey,everyone got his/her own interest..
don't stop me..

well,at the first sip,the tequila tasted like oh shit,so not nice..
but as your taste bud feeds on the taste,slowly it becomes an addiction..
u could feel every sip brings such excitement to ur body..
making it hot..
with sky bar's view and such dimly lighted bar,the mood is just so soothing n relaxing..
thinking back is just such a place to go back again..

but all things have two side..
now im having allergies against the high does of tequila..
im itching throughout my whole body..
some parts where they are swelled up..
thought it does bring discomfort to me but well,i guess it's all worth it..
cause i've tried something i've been longing to try...haha..

oh yeah,the name of the tequila i drank was deluxe Margarita..
ahaha...itchy itchy..haha..there are some pictures of it but im sooo lazy to update it..
haha...maybe someday later...

the world stops at this moment

its almost 1...
its dark and the sky are no longer the blue ones..
it's one of the longest moment in my life again..
yet ive done so much thinking again..
still after so much thinking and nothing have been done or said..
it's such a sad moment cause im all alone with nobody to chat with right now..
people whom i thought was my friend have become such strangers..

i lay my hand off them and i shall remember why i did it..

i am thinking if ppl see me happy would they be happy??..
is there no anger in me??..why i am feeling like im losing my touch ??..
there's this girl whom i presume i grew fond of...
she asked me to be her 'brother' which actually did make my heart ache..
but what is off this feeling??.
i dont even know if it's here to stay and last??..
i dont want to waste my time chasing ghost again..
i dont want to even give a second to think of starting one if we just have to try??.

what's it like living in a world where everybody likes u??.
and ur life is just so perfect??.
where is the life if people around u are just in disguise??..
the one thing ive always dream of,group of friends hanging having fun,the limit breakers,rule opposer..
seems such a long and bumby glance of it just itches my heart...
huh...

i miss mummy(jenny)

somehow somewhere in this heart, i missed her right now..
lol...spending time with her seems kinda fun or maybe because she is the first person to make me think that my life is not hard at all when it comes to other to compare..
thinking back about the topic we had in mid valley and all the junk food we ate was fun...
haha..
we have something to talk always and something said when nothing is said..
ok lah,missed it but it was all sealed within my memory as of now we are on our own busy road again..
seems like even weekends are so short.
whatever happen to live ur life??..
there's work,study,health,sports...
all do but no talk...
what's life to it??..
it's like we're bounded by shackles...
somehow i gotta find something interests me...
im finding life boring...hah...

thn what bout this feeling i have for this girl??..real??..fake??..or just a passby??..
mostly another passby i guess..
ppl who comes with a fresh feeling thn fades with time..
all seems so short to stay..
when will one come and stay??.
it is too hard to ask for one,who loves unconditonally??..
or am i still sulking and still asking who i am??
being on the road to find who u really are isnt a bright and smooth road but rather a dark road with bumby hills...
ahh,i complain too much dont i..
but if i dont,i can barely think of something to say in here...
hah,am tired already...
update soon i guess..

disguise??..

freaking people have freaking ways to threat their freaking friends..
to think that i was doing the right thing by helping a hand down just to know that its just another person in disguise..
u know there were times where u thought that this is the friend that needs your help...
u don't who is right and who is wrong..
u just want to help..
ur doing ur damn best to do something right for ur friend..

u don't care what the trouble is or what u have to lose to win this battle,all u do is just head straight because ur friend needs ur help..

in the end just to know that it was all just a gimmick that she was just desperate for attention..
im fed up,u know..
it ends that what i did for em doesn't seem to matter to them at all..
the jokes on me..
i did something which i shouldn't even bother..
ya know how depressing it feels when u got to know that ur friends were wearing a mask and u discover the truth by urself and not another friend informing u..
sick and tired of these kind of lies...
yet they turn to me and said 'we're friends'...
to hell with it...

unsociable??..

ok..first of all i do not know if this word exist = unsociable..
hah..ok bout the tittle i address for this post today is because lately ive been thinking..
ive been thinking am i not being friendly enough..

ive noticed that recently my phone hasn't been blinking or making noise which means nobody is contacting me..
have i left out my friends??..or who is my friends anyway??..

seems like everyone have their own friends to hang out,chill out, or even talk to ..
but somehow its been rather lonely these few days..
so ive been looking back and thinking..
have up been so stuck up that i dont socialize anymore??.
hmm..true to say that ive been rather keeping on a low profile...
should i go ahead and get to know some people whom i dont know??.
or should i still keep it on a low profile...

can u blame me for not being loyal??

i always hear people say that 'JIT LUN CHANGE TARGET AGAIN AH?BE LOYAL A BIT LAH'..
aha..but dont matter im over it...
well,truth is that i find it very dumb to stay loyal to someone for a long period of time..
its pointless..
to me is that it's either they love u or u don't..
u nvr get to understand love,agree?
what u will do for love is totally unpredictable..
so i usually ask myself when i wanna change my target..
short pain or long pain??
simple as it sounds,the meaning of it is pretty deep and clear..

nah..im just saying this cause it seems like my crush has a bf already..
so it means that she is my crushed crush so no point of liking her anymore..
lah..she is just so nice and yet not nice now..
reason for that is that she is still nice as i do have a bit of feeling left for her..not nice is that she is owned by another man and im happy for her..
cheers!!

oh yeah,currently working nowadays..
im working in connaught pharmacies..
oh goodie,nice job, low payment,nice knowledge and loads of fun..
been working for the 2nd day as of yesterday and today.
met nice people whom i get to click along with..

yeah,its really educating but im not really free to workout these few days..
i am so itched by just having the thought of playing bball..
miss it so badly..
fuuhh..life only looks good but nvr tasted good...
oh well tired and exhausted..time to watch cartoon!!...
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

holiday!!!

today is a freaking tired day..
not enough sleep..
woke up early..
went spastic at the basketball court..
spend like 8 hours outside..
and cut my hair..


well the best part of the day is definitely cutting my hair today by a hot hot girl..
i'll get to there..

see not enough sleep for jit lun = simply smiling for fun = spastic..
everything i said cannot be taken account for..

kinda rock today cause bball was like 20 to 30 over ppl in the court..
many people = fun = jit lun spastic with them= memalukan

the equation is to help u understand what other people are feeling bout me..

so thn after bball,as usual cc it is...
today is quite fun as nobody disturb what we wanted to play..
so yeah,fun..but sorry hon sim yen chin and adrian that i have to leave u guys alone..
i understand that u guys took the courtesy to come and find me to play bball..
but i still have the responsibility to teman my other friends too..
im so sorry..wish u guys could understand...

then after like 3 hours cc-ing, went to cut hair..

oh yeah..with brother ka hoe and sue yong and mr nice bf chen hoong, oh yeah go cut hair..
though i did like my previous hair before the cut, look so korean my god..
haha...but then now look more of the 'hey, neat hair cut or for me, its sexy!'..(DON'T ASK ME TO DEFINE WHAT IS SEXY TO ME)

but the best part is that my hair was cut by a beautiful jie jie..
haha..me and my jie jie again..
i went to the shop for more than my feet and fingers could sum up but i never know what this jie jie's name is..
well, i dunno if it's her job to ask me question but she did ask me a lot of question but i answer her with a simply 'em,ah,no yes, err,or gah'...
maybe i was shy..
but no lah..
i wasn't..
her boss was there..
how was i gonna flirt with her??..
flirt??(too strong of a word)...
well, jit lun right..
then went to makan at lm..
then went home and eat dinner!!..
full till i feel funny...
well its ok for the day..
but i am damn exhausted...
i can barely lift my leg straight and wave goodbye with my leg...